1. On and Off the Mountain Jessica Miller T330 Leadership Path

2. Where I Started Theory: Lots of ideas about leadership Practice: Equating leadership with authority Example: My first vision statement to my network Example: My SLP entrance essay – the leadership positions I held

3. Where I Started Feeling incompetent – can’t hold it together Letting people down in work and personal life Risk = conflict = loss

4. Operating Principles I need to be “perfect” before I take action. – Demonstrate competence because that gives me authority. – Avoid conflict by having it “all together.” Example: Leaving my first group at NHCS and starting a new one.

5. Perfection = inaction in the moment Fear Doubt Perception of lack of authority/ expertise I disagree… what will they think? How should I phrase it? I can see what’s going on, but if I say something, I might make it worse OP in Practice Think I’m on the mountain top (or balcony) looking down, but really stuck in my own thoughts and fears

6. Underlying Assumptions I need to be “perfect” before I take action. If I am not perfect, I won’t be liked, respected, or accepted. If I am not perfect, I risk failing. Failing is an end, not an opportunity Failing is an end, not an opportunity.

7. Commitment To risk “mess” and conflict by taking action in the moment.

8. Taking a step is taking the risk of falling. Fear Doubt Perception of lack of authority/ expertise I can see what’s going on, but if I say something, I might make it worse Taking Action Worry about hurting others is really a worry about hurting myself

9. Competing Commitments To feeling safe and secure To feeling competent To feeling liked

10. Mental Model It’s all about me. Example: The group I work with didn’t meet on the days when I wasn’t there. Intervention: Tell them that I won’t see this group as a success if it doesn’t continue without me. I’m disappointed that they don’t prioritize it. Fear: They will be hurt and feel uncomfortable They will be less likely to participate They won’t like me anymore I will be a failure

11. How it Affects the Work Technical vs. Adaptive – It is much easier to make things “perfect” ahead of time when doing technical tasks Espoused theory vs. theory in use -- Rescuing instead of capacity-building Modeling a fixed mindset

12. Sometimes you have to fall to: Realize that you’re on the wrong mountain Gain a different perspective Get back on the hike Taking Action = Taking Risks

13. Where I Am Now Taking steps and taking risks – Baby steps and mini-risks Example: Inviting mentor principals to next group meeting and having the teachers run the session Moving from theoretical to practice – Practice pulling myself out of my own thoughts and being grounded in the moment